I also realize that it is "the little thing", and I shall get over it. However, I don't like feeling this way, and I shouldn't be made to feel this way as it is such a trap, and imprisonment! I heard you, I owe my feelings, and no one should make me feel what I don't allow myself to feel. It is easier said than done, as always!
Think about it, if the situation didn't arise, I would not feel this way: angry, trapped, and disrespected!
I am nice, too nice as a matter of fact, when I am quietly taking what others dished out without a word. I feel inadequate and torn as I can't confront the people without thinking about consequences. Above all, maybe my expectation was too high, when I assume that people should be considerate, and aware of their own being!
The situation was this, I supposed to watch the child until one o'clock at the max, and the father would come to take his child home; only when he showed up, he brought his work with him, and planted himself in my house to conduct his business.
Now, I have both the child and the father! My space is consumed. I can't do my own work nor have the time that I've set out for myself. I sat there thinking that maybe it was emergency that the father had to do his business. But it went on until 3:30, and I ended up taking the child with me to pick up my own son from school.
While the ordeal was going on in my own house, I didn't know what to say, but I fell utterly and totally uncomfortable, violated, and mad like heck. I mean what do you say in a situation like this when the people are your relatives?
I was on edge! I wanted my time and my house back! I wanted the person to respect my space, and not just planted himself on me whenever it was convenient for him. It was not a good feeling for me when I fell as if I was walked on. Why though? Why would someone do this to another without proper thinking?
Is my expectation too high in assuming that people should be considerate?
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(Listed in Mixed Memories Series)